Spain

The opponent in the final on Sunday July 11 will be Spain.
I like that because it plays the game delightfully almost gloriously.
Holland has to play 2 times better than they did to win that final. Luckily it's only one match and the players can play an extraordinary balanced game with their energized bracelets.

This afternoon I screwed the derailleur of my racing bike. I was lucky enough not to fall. A photo

I went home and took another bike to make a trip to Soest and Lage Vuursche. In the woods I had some real brainwaves when I sang the versions of songs I know.
At 10 pm I was home. I'm ready for a vacation till the end of the month.

I feel good, I hope you feel tohoo.

Thinking of Spain, I think of Puigcerdà. It was the first town in Spain I visited. Spain was the first country I entered walking.
And Puigerdà makes me think of Llivia, a Spanish enclave in France. And that brings me to a small museum in Llivia with all kinds of butterflies. I think Boudewijn Büch has never been there only because it's not on an island in the sea.

Anyway he would have loved it. Not only the museum but also being far away from the real world. The monastery on top of the hill looking over Llivia lying downhill up in the Pyrenees will make your mind free, gives you new incentives in finding yourself.

The butterfly effect makes me happy. I didn't bother having no dinner tonight. Only two 2 days old sandwiches. The sour stomach are the butterflies..

summer

July 1 2010, 3 Weeks after the elections. Politically nothing has changed. A VVD-deputy informed the parties and came to the conclusion that the party that lost significantly blocked a right wing coalition which would be a monstrous coalition.
I saw when I woke up on June 10, the day after the elections,that hopefully a cabinet of 4 parties without CDA would emerge. Purple plus as we call it.
Problem is that VVD doesn't like the idea to rule the country with the left wing. It's to left for their voters.
I think that left has to make concessions to get our proud Nation through the crisis. VVD can make demands in some way or another.

Last Thursday I got the results of a neuro-psygologic test I had at the end of May. The crow-incident was mentioned between the lines. The result is understandable. But the motivation of the result is unclear for me.
It will be send to my family doctor because he didn´t know anything about it when I asked about it when I saw him because of my bruised rib

4 Days ago I spoke E. and told her about the conclusions of the test. Well, she said, you ruin your own chances and only you are responsible for that. Only you.
It´s the logic of the social academic professionals, the soft economy of social workers, psychologist, etcetera.
It´s the same what Fennie says. It´s true that one has to work on himself after being confronted with himself.
Of course I should have done it 20 years ago. I did and in some way it helped. Now I have to take the next step.

Okay, it was a really confidential conversation. I bent over to her and she laughed seeing my shoes. (Zebra shoes she said once) I took her into confidence and she let it happen me telling some fresh conclusions of the test.
Among other things I told her that under stress I can lose control ending in the experience of derealization and concentration problems.
I told E. I was being under pressure by her -if you tell part of it you better tell it all-. That's why I said what I said.....

But isn't it so that I provoked her question (who?) why we should go to vote together by answering that I am in love. On who, she asked. On you, I hesitated. I don´t, she said.

But 3 days ago we had a good conversation and I could sit on the seat of her colleague right in front of her.

Everything in perspective

Thanks Ocean, maybe my blog is in the essence a way to put thoughts in perspective. In my native language we say wie schrijft die blijft. It is a saying originally from business administration meaning that it's necessary for the continuity of an organisation to keep the books in a proper way.

At present the expression is used also to say that a writer remains (well)known after death. Of course it's used in relative sense, but it's absolutely true. If one does his work properly he can stay.
Last week I had my RGW and it was worse than the previous one in December 2006. My team leader and I have a different opinion on how to deal with work that has to be done. I can do better maybe.

I'll change some things but what can't be changed, can't.

Yesterday I've had a time trial at the end of the season of the Sunday club-cycling.
The result wasn't good at all. I rode as a sack potatoes on a bicycle. I couldn't make the real speed which is needed on a small distance of 10.4 kilometer. Maybe my season was too long? More people complaint that they had no power. Well, now we'll have a long period to recover.

And of course there is the financial crisis. In fact, months before the real crunch of the stockmarkets in the world France was warned by their economists.
I photographed in June '08 one bilboard in Avignon announcing a debate about the financial crisis and the impact on the real economy.
Did I have a feeling on that moment that things would go this way? No. I didn't.

It's time for a change!

Ocean, Sarah, Caren and all the others, our generation has to do things different!!We got to think out of the box, think local and act global. We got to learn from eachother more.

here's Johnny....

Last Sunday I fell with my bicycle. It was an hillarious fall because I stood still. The frontwheel of my cycle blocked because of a little sanddune. There I lied on the ground. I stood up and finished the ride. Total distance 90 kilometer.

Monday I just went to work but it was a strange day on which I didn't stay quite as calm as I should be. Maybe I had a concussion of the fall. It was better to stay at home on Tuesday. I learned from an earlier fall in September that I should not keep on going.

Tuesday I stayed calm but suddenly while sitting on the sofa I had an awkward or inconvenient feeling inside my head. It was if a couple of bees or other insects were flying around and they couldn't get out.
I had this sensation before. I hoped it wouldn't come back. But now it's there again saying "Hellooo, I'm back!" I had that feeling before an epileptic attack. The last one was more than 6 years ago though. "here's Johnny...."

So today I took another day off (officially ill) and tomorrow I'll go to the office. Hopefully Johnnie's back to his home.

On my way to Amsterdam

When I came back in my old town I came along this wall. This was last weekend. I took my camera with me on cycle tour which was a day return Utrecht-Amsterdam. Partly I followed the road between the canal and the railway on the video. The return was 102 kilometer by the way.

On my way to Amsterdam I had a lot to think over. At work really a lot is going on. Especially the spreading of rumors about my colleague's and my position leaving the department is something which interest me. But it's true between 3 months and a year I will be doing work in a different way. But which way, that is the question. The management who favours our transfer does mention the pros but doesn't speak about the contras of it. Being on the department means having short lines with the work-floor and having access to (not digitalized) information and people. Files cannot leave the department so for payments I have to be on the department. There is so much to say about it. As we have a new team-leader we first want to inform her about the progress in this transfer.

Today we had a trip with our department. Some kind of team-building without the coming team-leader. (what made the interim manager decide to plan it on his last day in office?) It was a ride with cars and in the meantime we had to do some tests as in a rally like Paris-Dakar. The cars we drove were Citroen 2CV's. Very nostalgic cars, but not really for me. After 10 kilometers I was sick and at the first stop I decided to to back home. I walked 4 k to a train-station and took the train back home. That happened at 2 pm. 10 Hours later I still felt sick.

 Two days ago I had this view from my window.