Mountain

It's a decision I've made already for myself. I'll climb the col de Alpe D'huez in the French Alpes.
By doing this I support the fight against cancer. The goal of the organization is to find money for making cancer a chronic instead of a mortal disease.

The main goal is to climb 1,000 meter in a 14,000 meter long road to the top of the mountain several times. Hopefully I get some people who donate some money on the account of my part of the AlpeDuZes-website which will follow later this year.

As a team of 8 cyclists we wanna raise 20,0000 Euro or more.
I'm excited how to reach so much money for the good cause.
Yeah, finally I can do something good with my more or less selfish riding.

There is one big question. To be part of the climbers I have to do a medical examination to secure my application for this ride.

holy

On the 14th of May I wrote about the Iranian woman living in Spain.. She's blind because an man sprayed acid in her eyes. Now she's allowed by the Iranian Justice to do the same with that jailed man.

However she is allowed, she has a legitimate reason and must be very bittered by what is done to her, she show this horrible man mercy. She deserves a statue. She should be declared holy by I don't know what kind of religious institution.

allowance

An Iranian woman living in Spain has permission to do the same what happened to her when she denied a lover. That lover sprayed acid in her eyes. Now she's blind. In Iran an eye for an eye seems to be normal. It's a right in their legislation. Many people here in West Europe would like to have the same legislation.

Plato said "One should never do wrong in return, nor mistreat any man, no matter how one has been mistreated by him."
—Plato's Socrates (Crito, 49c) (c. 469 BC–399 BCE)

"One should treat others as one would like others to treat oneself (positive form)[1]
One should not treat others in ways that one would not like to be treated (negative/prohibitive form, also called the Silver Rule)" (wikipedia)
This Golden Rule can be found in many religions or ways of living. THey're the ethics of life.

So why should Spain allow a blind woman to treat her attacker the same way he attacked her. This is an inferior deed which is morally/ethically wrong.

Think, can we allow this? Well, we aren't all Platoists.

care

after the quake

brainvillage

Well I've had an intake for the next step to work on my strengths and weaknesses.

One of my weaknesses came to me in a dream. I really have forgotten time when I had that dream, say nightmare. That was the point of no return.
More strengths were presented to me in an assessment report from 2001. I totally neglected this report. I do have major strengths and the art is to exploit and develop these. Doesn't the O stand for opportunity?

I have to formulate the ultimate goal I want to achieve at the end of these fortnight sessions in a business center on a recently developed state of the art brain village in the middle of the Netherlands.

Well, this is the first step.

Go

Today I worked. I just started and payed a lot of bills.
Tomorrow I'm a day off work. I got something else to do.

This afternoon I phoned my mother to say I wanna come over to discuss some things.
It was an unusual short call and shortly after that call she called back.
She was a bit agitated and wanted to know what it was where I wanted to talk about.
Did she feel a bit hostility from my side? Who knows. But I would let the bygones be bygones. She said that I was strictly business and that she would like to know what it was about. If she knew, she could prepare herself.

I would speak with her about the bad dream of some time ago, the dentist, all about Fennie (she doesn't know that she and I said goodbye 17 years ago) and that I want to get back in touch, my work, the book of Jonathan Franzen (The death of Lalitha felt like a stab in my heart.)
I told her that it's only about my worries.
(Her violent divorce has hurt all her children, but that is bygone.)

This is how I try to get my life on track.

flowers

Friday September 24 was a successful day for me.
Some days are just perfect because at the end of the day it all seems to be so advantageous.
My day was good because it started slow (like slow food you got to take time to prepare the food). I had an appointment with my mental trainer/ coach or whatever you call him, in the morning. We had a good talk about assholes in life (traffic, work, daily life) because of the book I read, talked about 2 incidents and how I reacted on it. I try to use the theory I called the 4 G's theory. (REBT of A. Ellis) in these cases more or less and it works.
It's not that I practice the theory intentionally. When I think of the situation afterwards or discuss it than I conclude that there is a REBT in it.

I told about E. whom I fell in love with and about wanting to work on another department, doing different things. I'm working under my level for years now. That's another story. In the next weeks I got to find out what the ideal job for me looks like. After that I can arrange a conversation with my team-leader about more inciting work.

After this session I cycled back to work and felt better than a week ago. Again 21 kilometers, now without difficulty.
At work it was silent.Only 5 colleagues. And after 3 pm there were 3 of us.
Fantastic. No disturbance, no unnecessary incentives.

Yesterday 29 years back Mr Joe Black didn´t get me. Great how life in 29 years evolves. So I´m happy that here I am so far. It could have been worse!

Life

What did Darwin think when he wrote things down in his dairy when the Beagle took him to undiscovered places? He collected material which he brought back home. That material he studied and compared. I don't know exactly how he did it, but at the right moment he wrote his book On The Origin Of Species By Means Of Natural Selection.
It was published in 1853 by an editor named John Murray (and coincidental Murray did win the ABN AMRO tennis-tournament in Rotterdam today) From that moment man begin to think about his real origins. The evolution of mankind by coincidence.

A few day's (or night) ago I thought about a girl I studied with in my youth.
By coincidence her name appeared as first name on a list of the school we visited together years ago.
I googled on her name and found that she has a small company (Joe the Plumber like) close to my hometown.

There was more. I learned that she had mental problems for 10 years. She went to the psychologist. Therapy learned her that she hasn't dealt with the past of her grandparent who was in fact a collaborator in World War II.

The strange thing is that she is third generation!
These things live a life in the brains of people and are passed to next generations. Some alterations make mankind better adapted to crises. The evolution hasn't stopped.